Hmm...as much as possible I want to be positive and happy on my blog post..but it's the other way around..
Lately I feel sad..I'm feeling down..and negative thoughts just keep on coming..
I start to ask myself..why? why am I feeling this way?
Why negative thoughts just don't stop..
I was once a happy little being..I always see the brighter side of life..
In fact when times get tough and things are gettin' unfavorable..I just told myself that there's a reason behind everything and a sound in my head will say this phrase "Kristine..you're not stuck the way things are..life is a big wheel..life changes so just keep going.."
So what happened now?? why I feel like I am trapped in a place where I am not supposed to be..
It feels like the world is busy outside..and I am here alone and doing nothing but to think and fonder on the anxieties that my frantic brain has to offer..
And to be more specific..here are the things that bothers me a lot..
Before I think I was great on my own ways..not until I became a home buddy cause I can't find a job that suits me..or am just unlucky? or not good enough? (see how a situation gets me into so much negativity)
It feels like I can't do anything right and feelin' hopeless...
I started to compare myself to others..my career..how mess up I look (I've been suffering for acne break out for almost 2 months and on a medication right now)...
My thoughts began to wander to "the dark side" questioning my abilities...
I know that other people might experiencing much greater dilemma than I am into..
I'm just tired of this thoughts.. I just need to let it out..
Can you please tell me that soon things will get better? :(
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